My heart hurts....

I saw another article today about a gay man being murdered. They're not sure it has anything to do with the fact that he was gay, but that seems to be the general consensus. Things like that are the reason I try very hard not to hate. Hate does nothing good for anyone. I'd say there's probably only one person I really hate in this world, and I have a very good reason for hating him. It just breaks my heart to see these type of articles, as well as all these little kids committing suicide because of people teasing them. I was teased as a child growing up, so those kids have a special place in my heart. But, I wonder sometimes....if I was in the wrong to have kids. I mean.....what kind of a world do we live in? What if one of my babies ends up being gay? What if someone hates my kids just because they're gay? Or just because they're Mexican? It's horrible. And we want to boast about how humans are so much smarter than animals. You don't see a pack of wolves teasing the lone wolf cause he has funny colored fur. Or lions turning on one another cause they look different. It's all about survival in the animal world. Everything comes down to that basic instinct of survival. I'm sorry, but you could never, in a million years, convince me that someone murdering another human because of who they're attracted to is based in the survival instinct. It's not. It's based on the idea that anything that's different is unnatural and there fore must be feared, and then fear turns into hate, and hate turns into murder. It's just all so senseless and puzzling to me. And scary. I mean, I'm not quiet about the fact that I'm bi, why the hell would I be? I love that about me, among other things naturally. But, I've never felt the need to keep it quiet....at least not since I finally came out to my friends and family. Only once....in high school, when a class mate did a presentation on "solving the gay problem". And he talked about sending all gay people to an island, or lining them all up and shooting them. I was scared then. Not many people knew I was bi then either, so really I had nothing to fear. But now, I'm open and proud about my sexuality. I've never thought twice about it. I mean, no, it's not something that gets brought up in day to day conversation. But if I heard someone going off about gays and blah blah blah....I'd have an awfully hard time keeping my mouth shut. I just don't understand what this world is coming to. It's ok for adults to be fucking little kids, but it's not ok for an adult woman to be in love with, and attracted to, another adult woman? Or man. Or trans whatever....insert whatever you want. When pedophilia is cool and acceptable, but love, regardless of who it's between, is wrong.....then the world has all ready gone to hell in my opinion. When is the Apocalypse.....cause we're in some dire need of population control. I hope all those bible banging assholes do go first. I'll survive fine, even better without the closed minded pricks around. And now I'm just being mean and prejudice. Bleh. I need sleep.