End Of The Game

Eyes of sapphire-silver ice,
Deadly angel kiss me twice.
Once in greeting, sweet surprise,
Again to end it, quit the lies.

Wasted days, waiting and tears,
Hopeless heartbreak bringing fears.
Wretched angel, leave me forsaken,
Give back my heart and promises taken.

Blame me for this and that,
Joyous soul you've beaten flat.
Colored this girl with hate and dismay,
Even though you told me not to stay.

I wish I could curse you,
Give you the desperate pain I knew.
Forget all the promises, things that you said,
Give up my vows, get you out of my head.

Angel of darkness - Mistress of pain,
Tattered my soul, left my heart slain.
Again and again, no love to be found,
Til after your request, then came the sound.

Shout to the mountains, tell one and all,
I didn't wait, how I was the first to fall.
Never mind your part, in this twisted game,
Playing the victim, it's all just the same.

Wretched angel, leaving broken souls in your wake,
What did you expect - How much more should I take?
The threats, the lies and games through the years,
All the nights that I wasted, oh all the tears.

My blessed angel, you've cursed me, it's true,
I fought very hard to try and forget you.
Hate you - I can't, tried it before,
Forget you - I wish, I just miss you more.

Why can't I forget you, or feel any hate,
With all that you've done - For nothing made me wait?
I may have fought nasty, perhaps I got mean,
But you're the one who took eight years to come clean.

Stop playing the victim, blaming me with your lies,
No tears left for you - I'll dry these blue eyes.
I've waited and waited, keeping my broken forever,
But I'll shoulder the blame and think it quite clever.

Perhaps next lifetime, my angel of doom,
We'll meet again, between us less room.
But this soul will remember, this long bloody war,
Maybe she'll have more sense than the ones before.

She'll remember the lesson I seemed to forget,
And knowing this heartache I'll make you a bet.
Spoken words will be useless, pretty wasted time,
You'll not win her heart, no matter which mountain you climb.

For you it's been fun, for me it's always the same,
You insisted on changing the rules of the game.
I kept waiting, when you told me to let go,
And then pointed your finger when I tried to do so.

That's all I was angel, a shelf for your blame,
All you ever gave me was sorrow and shame.
And why do I do it, waste time thinking of you?
When I always knew words finally spoken so true?

Mistress of deception - Angel of tears,
Why have you tortured me all of these years?
You think you're right - You've done nothing wrong,
But broke many hearts, lead still others along.

I hate who you are, despise what you've done,
But I'm not giving up, my wars just begun.
Someday you'll hurt, you'll cry over me,
You won't have a choice, the damage you'll see.

No one but you to blame, sweet angel of torment,
With all that you've done, the pain won't stay dormant.
I hope you will feel what I feel one day,
You deserve every bit of whats coming your way.

Pretend you've forgotten, sweet angel of pain,
Name her your torment, your heartbreak, your bane.
It's all just a game, just what you do,
But even now, I can see the real you.

My love don't forget, the long years that I wasted,
Waiting and hoping, of your lips to be tasted.
I played my part, and waited on you,
Though I knew all the lies and Hell I'd go through.

Those words that you wrote, though not spoken to harm,
Brought about panic, yes rose quite the alarm.
Crushed my world in an instant, those words that you said,
So much time had been wasted, with you in my head.

That's what it comes down to, this anger - This rage,
The years that I lost with your promises my cage,
But I'm still to blame, for wanting more than waiting,
Moving on like you asked, and not hesitating.

I'm sounding quite bitter, I'm pissed as all Hell,
Still I can't be a quitter, continue to dwell.
One day you'll see the mistake, regret what you've done,
You'll know all my heartache and tears - Cherish each one.

Yet my poor angel, my demoness of hate,
Your forgiveness and friendship will just be too late.
Though I can't hate you, I'm trying real hard,
It's getting much easier, as I pick up each shard.

So laugh now my angel, live it up while it lasts,
Soon you'll be wishing you hadn't let me slip past.
Then I'll be laughing, as you weep and you moan,
Moved on as you asked, and you as always - Alone.

Goodbye my angel, my lover, my friend,
I'm locking your box tight, I'm calling the end.
Farewell my angel, forget all that I knew,
I'm broken and bloody - I can't keep loving you.

A.S. September 2, 2009